My Mind, Body and Soul Mission Summer 2008 got a little off track over the past 7 days. My husband decided that we are moving to North Carolina next summer. This is great, but I had to spend some time getting organized, like filing TAXES, 6 years worth to be exact....who knew you have to file US taxes when you earn a foreign income?? Once I have a task to complete, I have to do it and finish it. The problem was my undertaking took several days at home on the PC and I put on 3 pounds. My summer mission has really been insightful. Not only have I learned that I need to start working on my negative attitude and that I have taken on the identity of the city I am living in, but I also have a problem eating when I am bored. If I am engaged in an activity that is keeping me busy, I don't snack. Over the past few days at home working on my PC, I probably spent most of that time standing in front of the fridge with the door open, as though something new has popped in since the last hour. I hate to acknowledge all these negative attributes about myself, but if I am going to get real and work my own self-improvement program for the summer, I have to be honest. It is hard to realize that I am picking up some really bad habits, and exuding some really negative vibes. I read in Eckhart Tolle's book, A New Earth that "I am doing just fine, thank you" is a role the ego plays more commonly in America than in certain other countries where being and looking miserable is the norm and therefore more socially acceptable." When I read that my mouth dropped to the floor. That is such a profound statement, and so true, for myself as an American and as an Egyptian. No wonder I am in such a flux, as an American I want to fake it and smile and "be right", and as an Egyptian I want to ventilate and "be right." Either way, I want to be right about everything and to be validated that I am right, and then have a snack. Yep, it is difficult working the Mind, Body and Soul Mission Summer 2008 program. Perhaps I don't need to know myself that well.....to much knowledge about ones self has to be detrimental to your mental health.
On that note..
Until next time,
A Woman of Egypt